Innermost Being Blog

Boldly bringing good news

Faith comes from hearing the good news. But how can they hear if no one speaks?

Lord, may I be strong and courageous in sharing the good news, knowing that You are with me. Fill me with your Spirit and give me the words to speak.

How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news.

Lord Jesus, enable your humble servant to speak your word with great boldness. May I fearlessly proclaim the truths You whisper in my ear. What you tell me in the dark, may I speak with confidence in the daylight.

Lord, may I not be concerned about what others think of me. I know who I am. I am your beloved. You redeemed me. Your truth has set me free.

Lord God Almighty, in all my ways and with all my words, may I acknowledge you before others. You are good. You are God. You are worthy of all my praise.

Just as I am

Based on my notes on Philip Yancey’s book, Prayer: Does It Make Any Difference?

I am never 100% the real me around other people. I am afraid of being judged, so I hide my true thoughts and feelings. I do reveal more of myself to the people I trust. But even with close friends, I have secrets I’m too ashamed to share. I have hopes and fears I keep to myself.

Philip Yancey wrote that each of us has three selves. There’s the me I let others see, the me I share with the people I trust, and the me I never reveal to anyone.

I can’t hide any part of myself from God. He knows every corner of my mind and heart. When I am honest with God about my thoughts and feelings, I establish an intimate relationship with him. What do I have to lose? He already knows everything about me. He loves me just as I am.

How do I let down my defenses with God and establish an intimate relationship with him?

  1. I confess my sins. I come clean with God about my sins – sins of my body and of my heart. When I confess, I acknowledge the truth about where I stand relative to his holiness.
  2. I admit my helplessness. Although I try to be independent and self-reliant, the truth is I am not. I can’t do everything by myself. I can’t control everything. I am dependent on God for my safety and emotional well-being.
  3. I approach God with humility and gratefulness. God deserves the credit for my gifts and abilities. I have little control over who I am. I cannot take credit for my genetics, my personality, or for the circumstances of my birth.
  4. I admit my doubts. God understands. The Bible is full of stories of people who expressed doubts.
  5. I admit my vulnerabilities. God knows my weaknesses. He knows where it hurts.
  6. I expose myself fully to God. I bring my whole life into God’s presence. I trust God with all of me.

I know that I can approach God in prayer just as I am because God knows me inside and out. I can let down my usual defenses and be my true self.

O Lord, you have searched me and known me!
You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
    you discern my thoughts from afar.
You search out my path and my lying down
    and are acquainted with all my ways.
Even before a word is on my tongue,
    behold, O Lord, you know it altogether.
You hem me in, behind and before,
    and lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
    it is high; I cannot attain it.

Psalm 139:1-6

Be Still

Be still and know that I am God.
Quiet your anxious mind and
know that I am with you.
Let go of your worries.
Let me carry your burdens.

Close your eyes,
take a deep breath,
exhale and feel my presence.
My Spirit is with you.
My Spirit is in you.

Be still and let me be God.
Find refuge under my wings.
I will make your paths straight.
I will lead you beside quiet waters.
I will refresh your soul.

Be still and know that
when you put your trust in me,
you will soar on wings like eagles,
you will run and not grow weary,
you will walk and not be faint.

Be still and know that
I am good - omnibenevolent;
I am everywhere - omnipresent;
I am all-knowing - omniscient;
I am all-powerful - omnipotent.

I AM.

Prayer Corrects Myopia

Why pray if God already knows what is on your mind? Does prayer change God, or does prayer change you? Philip Yancey addressed these questions and many more in Prayer: Does It Make Any Difference?

As Yancey noted, we often act as if we expect God to serve us. We tell God what we want him to do for us. We are disappointed in God when God does not answer our prayers.

Prayer helps correct myopia.

Philip Yancey

I close my eyes and talk to the invisible God. My mind is incapable of grasping his magnificense, though I see glimpses in the beauty of creation. I hear glimpses of his glory in the sounds of music and birds singing. I consider all of his works, and I am awed by his Almighty power and intelligence.

I see life from my own limited point of view. When I pray to the Creator of the universe, I realize how small and insignificant I am in the grand scheme of things. I am one of countless creatures on his planet, and there is so much I can not see and do not know.

I am humbled.

I am relatively old in human terms, but my life is just a blip on God’s timeline. I live in the moment. I can’t see the future. I can’t see how things will work out. Prayer teaches me to trust God’s plans and his timing.

I trust God to work things out for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day.

2 Peter 3:8

And yet, I still pray as if God needs me to bring the world’s problems to his attention. Like David, the psalmist, I complain to God about evil people who seem to get away with cruelty, lies, and other wrongdoing. I pray about injustice and ask him to intervene and to make things right.

I talk to God about issues in my own life. The stresses of work. The heartache of rejection. Concerns that seem trivial when compared to the problems others have. And yet, I know God cares about everything that affects me.

With other prayer warriors, I pray for people in need of healing, comfort, or protection. The needs are never-ending. Broken bodies, broken hearts.

Prayer corrects my near-sightedness. Prayer gives me the right perspective. Prayer helps me see other people as souls made in the image of God. Prayer aligns my heart with the heart of God.

Philip Yancey wrote that we are God’s agents on earth. Instead of just asking God to do something, ask what you can do for God.

An Ordinary Story?

When I lay down to sleep at night, I begin my prayer with thanks for the day. When I have a bad day, it’s not easy to give God thanks for it. Several weeks ago, I had that kind of day. I had taken a break from work to run errands. When I got home, I couldn’t find my glasses. I was really upset because I had only had these glasses for a few months and they were not cheap!

I had driven to Walgreens that day. I wear prescription sunglasses when I drive, then switch to prescription eyeglasses when I go inside. So I knew I had my glasses on when I shopped. What could have happened to them from the time I left the store to my arrival at home? I looked in my car to see if they fell out of my purse. I called Walgreens to ask if they had been found. They weren’t there. I drove back to Walgreens to see for myself if I had dropped them next to my car.

That night, I prayed that God would help me find my glasses, even though I knew that if I dropped them, they were most likely broken. The next day, I thought to myself, I should look under my car. There they were! One arm was cracked, but the lenses were untouched. How fortunate that I didn’t drive over the lenses when I drove into the garage! I was relieved.

I took my broken glasses to my optician to see if they could be fixed. He made a temporary repair but said the repair wouldn’t last long-term. If I bought the same frames, he said they would put the lenses in them.

My husband found the same model of frames online. The company didn’t have the same color as my broken pair, but there were several other colors, so I ordered a pair. I did not get an email confirming my order. That concerned me. I returned to the website using my browsing history and printed out my order.

When neither the order nor the order confirmation had arrived in a week, I emailed the company. No response. I called and spoke to Jonathan, the optician who runs the website. Sounding frazzled, he told me he had shipped them. When the frames didn’t come after another week, I called again. This time, Jonathan said he wondered whether he had sent them to the wrong address. In the next phone call, Jonathan said that he didn’t have the color I ordered, but he could send me another color. At this point, I didn’t care about the color. When the frames finally arrived, I was so relieved!

This is just an ordinary story, isn’t it? People lose things, even valuable things, every day. But when something you value is lost, you will look everywhere to find it. You will be so excited when you find it, you will want to tell your friends. No matter how damaged your precious thing is, you will do whatever you can to restore it to its rightful condition.

That’s how God views us. We are so precious to him. He will not stop pursuing us until we are found. We may appear damaged and beyond repair, but not to God.

Read Luke 15. Those who are lost are precious to God. Jesus told three stories to get this point across.

Rejoice with me. My precious child was lost, and now he is found!

In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”

Luke 15:10 NIV