Innermost Being Blog

The Power of Love

Paul’s Prayer for Spiritual Wisdom

The Apostle Paul prayed that God would give the believers in Ephesus the Spirit of wisdom and revelation so that they would know Him better (Ephesians 1:15-23).

I pray that the eyes of your heart will be enlightened so that you may know:

the hope to which you have been called

the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people

his incomparably great power for those of us who believe

Those of us who put our faith in the Lord Jesus Christ are God’s inheritance! We are valuable to him.

The incomparably great power that is available to believers is the same power that raised Jesus from the dead!

Paul also prayed (Ephesians 3:16-19) that God would strengthen believers with power through his Spirit in our innermost being so that Christ may dwell in our hearts.

Paul prayed that the believers in Ephesus would have the power to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ! It is a love that surpasses knowledge. Knowing this love, we “may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.”

Glorious Father, I pray that you will fill me with your Spirit of wisdom and revelation. Open the eyes of my heart. Remind me that you have called me to hope, not to despair.

I am valuable to you, the Most Holy God, the Creator of the universe. You sent your son to pay the ultimate price for my sins. There is no greater love than the love of Jesus, my Savior.

Fill me with spiritual wisdom and empower me as a witness to your love and mercy.

The High Cost of Discipleship

Matthew 10:21 is a hard verse to read. In predicting the trials that awaited his disciples, Jesus said, “A brother will betray his brother to death, a father will betray his own child, and children will rebel against their parents and cause them to be killed.”

When I read this scripture in the past, it seemed hypothetical, for me anyway. Now, I know it is real. When Christian members of your family choose a path that is not the way of  Christ, it feels like a betrayal.

There is indeed a high cost to following Christ. That cost includes relationships with friends, family, and members of our church family.

I have been conflicted for several months about an argument with a sister. My sister became very angry when I said that Donald Trump should repent. She argued that there is no way I can know that he hasn’t repented. I argued that if he had repented, there would be evidence that he had changed. My sister believes that Donald Trump is above reproach, which is cult-like behavior.

Our quarrel revealed a deep division in our beliefs about what it means to follow Jesus. Salvation leads to spiritual transformation. True repentance comes with genuine remorse for one’s sins. It leads to changed behavior.  Repentance is turning away from our sins – moving in the opposite direction.

Following Jesus means staying faithful to his teaching. It means loving one another, even our enemies. It means doing your best to see that no one misses out on the grace of God (Hebrews 12:15).

Christ alone is the way, the truth, and the life. No one but Jesus has the power to heal this broken world.

Yet too many American Christians, like my sister, continue to put their faith and trust in a man who is the complete opposite of Christ in every way. I can not understand abandoning the core beliefs of our faith. I am powerless to change their minds. They are under a powerful deception. They have made a terrible bargain.

And what do you benefit if you gain the world but lose your own soul? Is anything worth more than your soul?

In becoming more vocal about my opposition to Donald Trump and Elon Musk, I am learning which side friends and family are on. Are they on the side of love, charity, grace, mercy, and justice? Or are they on the side of selfishness, condemnation, hatred, vengeance, and cruelty?

I’ve grappled with how to deal with Christian Trump supporters. I can’t change hearts that have been discipled by false teachers. I can’t pretend that support for Trump is merely a disagreement about political issues that has no consequences. I have chosen to step away from my relationship with my sister to protect my own emotional well-being.

Someone said that it may help to think of relationships lost to Trumpism as losing a loved one to dementia. You still have your memories, but they are not the person you once knew.

If you want to be my disciple, you must, by comparison, hate everyone else—your father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters—yes, even your own life. Otherwise, you cannot be my disciple. And if you do not carry your own cross and follow me, you cannot be my disciple.

Luke 14:26-27

I can not be a disciple of Christ and not be willing to pay the high cost. I pray that someday my sister and others who have been deceived will realize what a foolish bargain they have made.

Grieving the Corruption of Christianity

Like many followers of Christ, I was shocked in 2016 to see the overwhelming support Donald Trump received from Christians and people who claim to be Christians. The fact that this group again voted for him in 2020 and 2024 makes it very clear that Christianity has been corrupted.

Trump did not corrupt Christianity on his own. False teachers have been putting their desire for political power above the truths of the gospel for decades. Fox News and other far-right media spread disinformation and the fear of others that is central to the MAGA movement.

Today, as I walk through what feels like the valley of the shadow of death, I grieve the damage done to Christianity. There are four primary reasons for my grief.

1. The Church’s witness to unbelievers has been severely damaged.

This one hits close to home. Although my husband is agnostic, he used to come to church with me on Christmas Eve and Easter. He was beginning to soften his heart towards Christianity. Then, in 2016, 80% of Christians voted for a man who was and is the antithesis of Christ. When I started going to my current church in 2020, I made the mistake of telling my husband that I saw someone in church wearing a MAGA hat. Now, he absolutely refuses to attend services there. (Since then, we have seen one of the church elders wearing a MAGA hat at a local sports lounge).

Even people who do not believe in God know that Trump’s heart is far from God. He does not bear any of the fruits of the Holy Spirit – love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, and self-control. To be fair, he is kind to sycophants.

Christ’s followers are supposed to be a light in this dark world (Matthew 5:13-16). We’re supposed to be the salt of the earth. Sadly, today, we are not.

2.  Christians have been deceived and led astray.

Jesus warned that even the elect (chosen) will be deceived (Mark 16:22 and Matthew 24:24). Jesus warned his followers to watch out for false prophets. “They come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. By their fruit you will recognize them.”

Jesus also warned the disciples to “Be on your guard against the yeast of the Pharisees and Sadducees (Matthew 16:6).” Pharisees were legalists, believing that a person can be saved by following the law. Yet, not one of us can obey God’s law perfectly. Legalism is not compatible with the gospel of grace. Ironically, even though Trump is a man of lawlessness, he has won the support of legalists.

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.

Ephesians 2:8-9

In his first letter to the Corinthians, the Apostle Paul appealed to them to be “perfectly united in mind and thought.” But today, there is a deep division in mind and thought within Christianity that can not be bridged. You are either with Christ or you are against him. And Donald Trump is against everything Christ teaches his followers.

3. Believers are leaving the Church.

Many churches have been so damaged by the politicization of Christianity that faithful believers leave. If you leave your church, you lose your sense of fellowship and community.

Even if your church has not been politicized, chances are, many of the congregants have been discipled by people outside the church who have a political agenda. There may be an unspoken assumption that all Christians support Trump’s agenda. When the people sitting in the pew next to you support Trump and his antichrist agenda, you must keep silent to maintain the peace.

For now, I’ve chosen to stay in church because my pastor preaches the truth of the gospel. He does not get into politics other than to acknowledge the divisions. He tries to shepherd us in the right direction, in the way of Christ.

Before the election, my pastor preached a sermon from the book of Daniel about the Israelites living in exile in Babylon. The sermon was specifically about Daniel’s friends ignoring the sounds of horns, harps, lyres, and other instruments that signaled that it was time to bow down to King Nebuchadnezzar’s golden image. They refused to bow down and were thrown into a fiery furnace. After hearing that sermon, I now think of myself as an exile from American Evangelicalism.

4. The morality of the country has been damaged.

Trump empowers Christian nationalists and white supremacists. Christian nationalism is a perversion of the Christian faith. White supremacy is a perversion of humanity.

Donald Trump reminds me of the man of lawlessness mentioned in 2 Thessalonians 2:3-4. He lies constantly. He is unrepentant. He spreads hate and gives people permission to be vile and mean. He thinks he is above the law, and his supporters agree.

The fruit of Trump’s wickedness includes the dehumanization of immigrants and stripping the LGBTQ+ community of civil rights. His rotten fruit includes defaming his many enemies and seeking revenge against them. His economic policies that put corporations above individuals and the wealthy above the lower classes stink to high heaven. His betrayal of our allies and disregard for the environment are rotten.

He is corrupt to the core and many “Christians” don’t care.

As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I remind myself that the Lord is with me. Jesus warned us about dark times so we would be prepared. He has a job for me to do: speak out and stand firm in his truth until the end. Be strong and courageous.

Words reveal evil hearts

The Lord Jesus said, the mouth speaks what the heart is full of. An evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored in his heart.

A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of.

Luke 6:45

The most hateful of hearts uses the mouth to dehumanize the objects of his hatred. When hatred fills the heart, the mouth spews out defamation and slander. When a heart is full of anger, words are used as daggers to hurt and punish.

The aggrieved, resentful heart calls out for revenge and violence.

The person who is full of pride uses his mouth to boast about how great he (thinks) he is. With his lying lips, he exalts himself above all others. He shamelessly brags about his wealth, his ill-gotten gains.

Merely bragging about himself is not enough; an envious heart drives him to tear down the objects of his envy with derogatory words.

You will recognize bad people, not just by their words, but by the fruit of their actions. Bad fruit includes chaos and division, destroyed reputations and careers, and various forms of cruelty, such as the separation of immigrant parents from their children.

By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes or figs from thistles? Likewise, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit.

Matthew 7:16-18

Why in the world can’t the American people recognize the heart of an evil man? Why did they pick such rotten fruit?

My soul hopes and groans

My Bible study group is reading The Hope of Heaven: How the Promise of Heaven Changes Everything by Sheila Walsh. In the study guide that accompanies the book, Walsh introduced the Greek word στενάζω (stenazo) for the chapter dealing with disappointment. Stenazo means to groan or sigh inwardly. It can also mean to grumble or complain.

Stenazo perfectly captures how I am feeling these days. I cry out to God in frustration.

It’s hard to hang onto hope. It’s hard to be at peace. It’s hard not to fear the worst. It’s hard not to be angry at the betrayal by people who claim to follow Christ.

Yes, I have hope for myself because I have been promised eternal life in a place where there is no pain and suffering. But I have to live in this broken world now. On a daily basis, I hear about the cruelty and lawlessness perpetrated by a man who has rejected God’s commandment that we love one another, even our enemies, the man who insulted a woman of God for pleading with him to have mercy.

A couple of days ago, I told a Christian friend that my husband used to go to church with me occasionally. I told her that with the current political environment, he refuses to go. She said, “Really. I’m in seventh heaven.” She started to say more but stopped herself. I groaned inwardly.

My heart breaks. My soul groans.

I am disappointed in Christians who voted for an evil man. I find solace in knowing I am not alone. I have Christian allies – people who are not afraid to speak out against Trump’s wickedness, people who refuse to bow down, people who remain faithful followers of Christ.

So as I groan inwardly and cry out to God in frustration, I put my hope in Christ alone, the King of kings.

Revelation 17:13-14 NIV
They have one purpose and will give their power and authority to the beast. They will wage war against the Lamb, but the Lamb will triumph over them because he is Lord of lords and King of kings—and with him will be his called, chosen and faithful followers.”

I groan inwardly, but trust that Christ, the Lord of lords, will ultimately triumph over evil.